The Innocent Evil: The Toxic Good.

define-funny: A young Kraken in training… a wonderful funny...

Sat, 18 May 2013 01:24:34 -0400

define-funny:

A young Kraken in training…

a wonderful funny blog

too cute!

seeingnevermore: Omfg. I love life. Well, not all the...

Sat, 18 May 2013 01:16:34 -0400

seeingnevermore:

Omfg. I love life.

Well, not all the time.

But…YOU ALL GET IT.

just some humor

Sat, 18 May 2013 01:14:16 -0400

just some humor

Buy this for $10...

Thu, 09 May 2013 21:52:38 -0400

Buy this for $10 here: http://www.ebay.com/itm/281104487845?ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT&_trksid=p3984.m1555.l2649

Check this video out to learn how to make paper flowers!

Mon, 06 May 2013 15:20:09 -0400

Check this video out to learn how to make paper flowers!

Hip hop Toast pop Butter scotch a filter was bought. (aim less)

Tue, 02 Apr 2013 23:31:15 -0400

Hip hop

Toast pop

Butter scotch

a filter was bought.

(aim less)

Hip hop! Toast Pop!

Mon, 01 Apr 2013 22:18:27 -0400

Hip hop!

toast pop!

He’s a flop,

Don’t got no bop.

Works at a ship shop,

but plays the ops

as a cop,

Don’t Stop,

Hip hop,

Toast Pop.

She’s a tot pot!

With a lollipop!

works in a flower shop,

but also plays the ops

in the tops.

Now stop!

Hip hop!

Toast Pop!

PIZZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 20:53:34 -0400

I want pizza!!!!!!!!!!

Allah is Awesome...

Thu, 14 Mar 2013 23:29:31 -0400

Three days of praying seemed to help mend the broken bond. I seriously love Allah! People have lost faith in him but, I haven’t. My dad tells me, that he takes too long to answer but personally, if one really loves Allah, he’ll respond so quickly to certain things that you never thought would happen.

I do wish to let people see his power and see how great He is. Yes, I understand, that the factor of “He” is there but one could also say Ze if it really bothers you. Moreover, I may not do my prayers all the time, but I do feel that Allah is worth more my time than anyone in this world is because He is the only being that would listen to my pain and stick with me. Most humans have left my side because they cannot take me, but Allah, no matter how I am, He never lets go.

For now, that’s all…it’s late….

No where to go...in need of a home...

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 15:18:56 -0400

So, until yesterday night I was super happy that I had spring break…I knew the tension between my mom and the rest of the family was building up. I was the one who blew up. My mom started acting up, and became self centered a lot since my sister finally is getting married. I let it go but she just kept pushing it. She kept putting her issues on me and making me worry. “Your dad said this to me…” “Your dad said that to me…” “Oh, we are getting this house fixed but what if the next day they kick us out?” “Your dad is like this” “Your dad is like that” “Your sister is like this…” “Your sister is like that” “you are like this” “You are like that” “did you do that” “Did you do this” “Do that, do this” “why didn’t you do that” “why didn’t do this” “why don’t you put things back right after you used them?” (I used scissors to cut a instant coffee pouch and just went to pour in the coffee for a second, and got yelled at for not putting it away right when I was done when I went back to put the scissors back. and it has happened many times and I don’t get a second to think). Every single day. When I wanted to go to my cousin’s house but i was only invited “No! I don’t want to associate with them!” And It wasn’t even an event for her. Then my sister was going, then too, she didn’t want me to go. I hate it when people overly control me. Even if it’s my parents. They don’t control my sister as much. Just me.

So, I was happy I was getting away from my mom for three days while I was at my sisters. And my mom knew I didn’t want her to go with me. I told her she could come on the weekend with me. But I needed the 3 days away from her. But she didn’t like that so she went behind my back to my sister and told her what I said and was making a plan to come here with my dad on the third night and staying for the next four days. So, I came today, a tuesday, she wanted to come on thursday and stay until sunday. Well, my sister was all happy and welcoming. But I was not. When they are here, I cannot do anything at all. 1) we only have one wire to the internet and no tv. So, my dad hogs the internet in the morning, and my mom hogs it the rest of the time.If I don’t let her use it, I get yelled at. It’s my computer, but not my internet. And I am not allowed to use it. Great. 2) I like going places and looking at things. But they don’t want to go, so I cannot go. Why? Because my dad takes the car, and my mom doesn’t want to be left alone. I have to sit and hear her yell at me and moan about how she could be at home and doing 10 million other things. 3) Sleeping areas are okay when they are not around. Me and my sister share a room. But my parents don’t sleep together, so they don’t like sharing a room. So, my mom takes over their room and my dad gets grumpy. And then I don’t get access to any internet or the car because he’s angry. 4) I am forced into doing things that I don’t want to. They make me do all the work as they just sit down and do nothing but complain like they are in a jail cell.

Back to the main point, so I throw a tantrum because I was irritated from before because my mom was pushing me around so much. I really wanted to go but not have them there. And I said I wasn’t going because they were and ended up getting more angry when they told me not to. So I cursed them out a bit but my sister forgave me but my mom didn’t because apparently, I kept her up all night and not her stupid acting of being sick and having a headache. Who keeps sitting around with a headache and pretending to do work, and pushing others around when everyone said you can just go and rest but nope. So it was just acting so she could be pampered like she always wants to be. So, she stopped talking to me for the rest of the night and then in the morning too. I needed chicken to take with me and I didn’t want to ask my mom because she wasn’t talking to me. I asked my sister, and she said to ask my mom. I asked her again to ask, but my mom didn’t acknowledge it. Then I sucked up my gut and asked. I got yelled at so badly. She told me I was her worse kid ever. I am nothing to her. I was rude now, and what will happen to me later. How much I am like my elder sister who betrayed her. (Which is my own theory that she wants me to be just like her so she could punish me like she wants to punish her) And many other curses on top of that. Which is most likely fueling my wish to leave and never come back, like I did with my high school. (I am in college but don’t want to see those people ever again.) And my sister did take some of the fault for it by not lecturing me too harshly, this time.

Now, I have no home to go to, I am residing in my sisters place for a while but how much longer do i have until i am to confront her? All my stuff is inside my room, which my mom every single day wants to take a trashbag and throw it all out. I never had a room of my own and always had to give it up. While my sister, how ever small it is. Always had her room. She always had everything she ever needed. Food, a car, shelter. Me, I was always the “bad” kid. My mom always tells people I am bad too. I am treated like the bad one. So I have been biting recently and fulfilling their wish.

I guess I deserved everything that happens to me. It’s never going to change for me, Is it?

yum pretzels

Wed, 27 Feb 2013 21:59:00 -0500

yum pretzels

Devil’s Food cake with Coco mocha Cream Cheese Icing,...

Wed, 27 Feb 2013 21:51:55 -0500

Devil’s Food cake with Coco mocha Cream Cheese Icing, Almonds, white chocolate with coconut shavings. I put it in the middle to see how fast it would go. The middle was eaten to so quickly, mainly the outside was left. Which was swiped away at the end too!

here’s another card. I made it but it turned out blurry...

Wed, 27 Feb 2013 21:47:37 -0500

here’s another card. I made it but it turned out blurry even with the flash on!

so… yea. The end.

So, I have been on a card making craze but this is the only one...

Wed, 27 Feb 2013 21:44:39 -0500

So, I have been on a card making craze but this is the only one so far I’ve taken with a good shot of it.

I feel sad.

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 21:28:02 -0500

Why? Beacause:

I don’t function right. Not mentally, or physically. Who is to blame: Me.

Everything good or bad that is to happen, is my fault.

So, if I make another feel a different way, i must have done something wrong.

If I make a face, I did something wrong.

I complimented someone, it came out awkwardly, I did something wrong.

Why cannot I over come this?

Why must I suffer so much?

Why must I care?

Why do I beat myself up so much after people who don’t give a **** in the end?

Why do I chain myself down to seeing a sad face and blaming myself for their pain?

Why?

"I don’t judge people of their past, or what they are. I judge them by how they treat me. I..."

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 21:21:00 -0500

“I don’t judge people of their past, or what they are. I judge them by how they treat me. I have met people who could be known as the rudest person in the world, but once I got to know them, they turned out to be the sweetest.”

- Abby

exactly what i’d be doing!

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 21:14:09 -0500

exactly what i’d be doing!

UGH! I am going nuts!

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 17:50:25 -0500

The coupon thing for AC Moore isn’t opening! Why!!!!!!!!!!!!

sayattheexplorer: The colors of this weird looking pasta are...

Sat, 16 Feb 2013 23:24:12 -0500

sayattheexplorer:

The colors of this weird looking pasta are just so wild! I found it in the friendliest slums of Mumbai — beautiful people, beautiful pasta!

That’s not pasta. It’s commonly known as “Poppers” or “fry me’s” or “fry ‘ems” here. You can find them at places where they sell south asian stuff. Plus, you fry them and they expand into fluffy goodness.

Fried butterfly shrimp with egg fried rice.

Mon, 04 Feb 2013 22:05:11 -0500

Fried butterfly shrimp with egg fried rice.